Monday, June 8, 2009

Out With the Old and In With the New!

For the past 5 years, I have been experiencing these crazy dreams and this morning I woke up from one of them. They always leave me in this paralyzed state of fear only to be able to pray my way out of it. 80% of the time, after a few moments, I am able to go back to sleep, but this morning I couldn't. I laid in bed trying to figure out what this dream meant. I tried to remember every detail of what was happening. I focused on people, colors, emotions, the environment, and nothing was really making sense and I couldn't make the connection to my everyday life. So, I laid there and tried to go back to sleep, and I was failing miserably. 

I started to think about what the next few months of my life will look like. I am embarking on a new journey that brings a bit of excitement but also much fear. In the middle of trying to make sense of it all, I was reminded again (I'm sure through His still small voice) that I really need to let some things and some people go that I have held onto far too long. I don't understand why this is such a hard process. If this thing, or person has brought us so much pain, you would think that you would get rid of it immediately. Instead we harbor bitterness and hurt. We let the wound scar over just enough to cover the deep rooted issue, pretending it never existed. 

I decided this morning, in the wee hours of the morning before the sun was even up that there are some familiar things and some familiar people that are soon going to become unfamiliar. Today, I am letting you go!!

What are you holding on to that isn't allowing you to be free? I think its time to be "out with the old, and in with the new." The newness that only God can bring!

Just a thought....